Aug 5, 2008

One is the loneliest number...


This post will be mushy...

As I have said, I am all alone here in Cda. The Man is back in Boise finishing up his job and getting our house ready for renters. ( which we finally found by the way, yes!) As of tomorrow I will have been without him for three whole weeks. The longest we have ever been apart.

I am undone.

I like to think of myself as a pretty independent person. I don't usually like to ask for help, thinking I can do it better on my own. I am stubborn. Strong willed. Bullheaded at times. I like my space. I need alone time every now and then.

I am ridiculous.

My life here without the man I love is too hard. Its stretches on forever with no hope of ending.Time stands still. The hours are filled with mundane activities. Robotic movements rule my body. My mind blank and uncooperative. Earlier statements of self- proclaimed fortitude and stall worthiness retracted. I am nothing without him. My heart hurts. My eyes are constant pools. I am cranky.

I am incomplete.

(can anyone tell I just finished " Breaking Dawn"? Yea..try that one all alone...)


  1. You are so strong and fabulous!! I'm sorry he's been gone for so long and YES, it would've been hard to finish B.D. without the husband with me! :)

  2. Congrats on the renters! That's wonderful! And good luck surviving without your other half. Oh, and I just finished Breaking Dawn too...sooooo good.

  3. Shawn won't let me read it until Friday so I'll get us all packed and ready to go. Nate is having a hard time to. I asked him what he is going to do when we leave and he just did that little giggle thing he does and smiled. I think he really misses you too honey. SO DO I!! Hang in there!!

  4. Glad to hear you got renters for your house. I am sure that is a relief. We sure miss you and I hope you and your hubby can reunite really soon! Keep in touch. Lindsay

  5. SHUT UP!!!! I just typed this cute and long message about how I tried to call you, even though I knew it was an old and out-of-date number, just on the off chance that I could somehow reach you. Now it just sounds desperate and weird, when before it sounded so sweet and endearing.

    Aaaaaaanyway. . . now that you're probably a bit weirded-out, feel free to call me!!!!

  6. Ha ha ha. It's Jacob that's in charge of the blog. So he's the one doing all the talking. How ya gonna make fun of me now, Sucka??!!


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