The Man and I had gone back and forth for a long time about whether or not to have another baby.
We were just so content with three and we knew we were going to have a LOT of changes coming to where we would be so stressed out:
dental school and The Man not being around much, me still in school, a whole new place to live etc.
It just didn't make sense to bring one more crazy thing into our lives.
Our three kids we have now are just about 2.5 years apart, and the longer we deliberated on the fourth one, the bigger the gap was getting between baby girl and a potential new baby. I didn't want to feel like we had two separate families or that the last baby would be so far behind the others that he/she would have no relationship with them. I also didn't want to have another baby just because we felt outside pressure to have more. I also loved that baby girl was so independent and sort of dreaded having to take care of an infant.
Its hard work!
Of course, some of these thoughts and feeling were selfish on my part. I knew we wanted a large family. I also wanted to have an even number of children, three just felt so.....odd. :)
And, every now and then I would get small whispers and strong feelings that we were missing someone. Often we would be gathered together as a family and for a split second I would unconsciously look around for where our other child was.
I knew we were meant to bring one more sweet spirit in to this world.
I was wondering how The Man would take it when I brought up the subject once more. We had kind of decided a month or so earlier that we would be done and felt relief at the thought, but I couldn't shake this feeling.
When I explained to him how I felt I was really surprised to hear him agree with me.
I wondered where the change of heart had come from, but quickly realized that we both knew how important family is to us and the plan our Heavenly Father has as well.
We both felt that there was one more baby meant for us.
So, exactly one moth later I was pregnant. ha ha!
I thought for sure it would take longer, but it was a one shot deal.
We were obviously supposed to have come to this decision. ha ha ha.
Fast forward to 32 weeks and I am so ready for this baby to be done! I feel huge and tired all the time. I can't even bend down to pick anything up..which is a good excuse to not have to do housework. :)
We will be blessed with a baby boy on Nov. 21st and we are both so excited. I remember the Man Telling me sooooo many times between Baby Girl and this little guy that if he could have our next baby be guaranteed to be a boy, then he would have no problem having another one!
I guess it was just all meant to be.
Here are a few shots I so vainly took of myself at 31 weeks. I didn't want to go a whole pregnancy without having any pictures of my baby belly! That would have been sad. :)
Now, if anyone has some really good four letter boy names, we would love to hear them!