May I be candid with you all? Yes? Thank, you I knew I could say whatever I wanted to around here and you all would still love and appreciate me..and possible have a little empathy for this selfish mother! :)
To be frank, The Man thinks its about time we had another baby. Haaa haa haa haa HAaa haa....!! (oh, please excuse my insane laughter..) I will tell you right now... I. AM. NOT. READY.
To be fair, the reasoning behind his time frame is mostly due to his thoughtfulness of my needs. How so? Well, in about a year and a half we will be starting our first year of dental school. *knock on wood* A first year school schedule consist of 28-32 full time credit hours, which basically renders me a single mother. He feels the sooner we have a baby, the older he/she (though hopefully a he. No more girls PLEASE!) will be when I am pretty much on my own. No to mention the fact that we would be done having kids all together. *knock on wood even harder*
But, to be incredibly honest even just the thought of having another child right now makes me physically exhausted, and somewhat sick to my stomach. It could be due to the fact that I already have three kids with completely conflicting schedules, or that I am also in school. I could be that I have too much weight to lose before I even want to think about it, or it could mostly be due to being Selfish. Its true. I am..but only with my free time. I LOVE the age my kids are at right now. They are able to go to bed without me present. They don't need my boobs for nourishment and I can stay out as long as I want to without worrying whether or not they are screaming bloody murder, and then having that thought induce embarrassing lactation accidents. *sigh* Its wonderful. I also can't help but remember THIS...and it literally makes me shutter. Ha Ha :)
Am I the only one who feels this way? Come on ladies, what do you think?