ok, I love my imac..but I have no idea how to use it!

I want to post pics...but I don't know where to insert my memory card! ;-) Ha Ha. I will just have to ask The Man when he gets back.

Anyway, did I mention how much I LOVE being closer to home? Just this very afternoon we are taking a trip to cda. And how long is it going to take us? One hour and fifteen minutes. How long did it take us before? Seven hours or more depending on how many times Little Girl puked.

Oh heaven to be able to make a trip without vomit! And how cool is it that we can just take them spur of the moment?

Actually it isn't really spur of the moment, I am going home to pick up my NEW sewing machine! Technically it isn't "new. Its actually almost 30 years old.  ( hee hee hee) But its new to me. I found it on craigslist ( love that guys list!) and its a Sears Kenmore that was made in the early eighties. The guy told me that it had been in storage since 1988. Can you believe it?  just hangin out down in his basement. His wife died when his kids were about 10 he said and she had only used it once to make a set of curtains! His granddaughter had wanted to use it so they took it out of the basement, got it fully serviced and then she changed her mind. So I found it and bought it. Wanna know for how much?

40 bucks

And it comes with a whole book on sewing ( which I seriously need) My mother in law has one almost identical to it, and I have sewn on hers a million times before so I should be able to figure this one out. The only drawback is that it weighs a ton!! But that just means its sturdy right? I mean it has lasted for 28 years already......I can' wait to get started on all the projects I have had in mind forever!

wanna check it out? click here--> yea for my sewing machine!!

9/11 Where were you?

My family used to have this outdoor shed that was wired with electricity and had lights inside and all. We used it as a bedroom and at this particular time I was using it as my room. I had just graduated from highschool and was in transition from summer fun to oh crap I have to find a job now. 

I was sleeping in when my mom came into the shed in tears. She woke me up and told me that something terrible had happened. I shot up and asked if everyone was alright, naturally assuming something had happened to a family member.  Everyone was fine of course, but as she told me a plane had crashed into the world trade center, in my mind I was like, " what is that, why is that a big deal? " ( I wasn't to concerned with world events, as you can tell..)  I followed her into the house where the tv was on and sat there for hours watching the screen,finally understanding, and crying. I couldn't believe something that that could ever happen and I was scared. 

I remember hearing the presidents speech afterward about how we would come together as a nation and and overcome. I have never seen so many flags on houses and cars as I did then. Every time I saw one I would become an emotional mess and just cry.  ( not so convenient when you are tying to drive!) 

I love this country and feel so blessed to live in a place where I have the freedoms and safety that I do. I am thankful for the men and women who put their lives on the line so that I have these things.

where were you? <- Click

Who said I had time?

So I know I always post about how much more I am going to post,if that makes sense, but it seems to always be not quite the truth. I keep thinking, "oh Baby girl will be asleep here in about... never... and I will blog then." Of course then laundry calls and says its way overdue for a cleaning and my kitchen starts crying because she somehow got her nice floor dirty. While I try to deal with two things at once my bathroom decides to puke and I can't find a clean towel for the life of me..oh yea, they're all in the laundry.....

I finally have a minute

Wow, here we are. Finally! All moved in to our new apartment ( good old apartment life..how I have not missed you..) and feeling settled. The man just started classes and I am already a single mom, he's either in class, studying for class or job shadowing dentists to get into dental school for more classes! Always fun. 

On a happier note we LOVE where we live. The complex has a large LDS population with tons of kids. Every person in my stair well is LDS and the girls are great! They are all really nice and friendly and that makes a huge difference in how the moving transition goes.  The Boy is in heaven with all his friends here and little girl is getting in on the action as well. I noticed all day yesterday how grown up my children are becoming. The Boy just looks like well..a little boy, no more baby fat on that one. He is skinny as a rail. And Little girl is getting taller and thinning out and getting farther away from my little baby everyday. I was sad and happy all at the same time. Lyla is getting huge! I forget how fast my babies pack on the fat. What a pudge, but it is so cute! ;-) She is smiling at you all the time now and I think she is right on the verge of laughing. I can't wait! I would post pictures but  my camera is MIA and I haven't been able to take any. Hopefully that will change soon. ( hint hint Kim!)

Now that we are here I will now be posting regularly again, for those three of you who actually read this...I know you are so ecstatic!  I missed writing....

One is the loneliest number...

WARNING!!

This post will be mushy...



As I have said, I am all alone here in Cda. The Man is back in Boise finishing up his job and getting our house ready for renters. ( which we finally found by the way, yes!) As of tomorrow I will have been without him for three whole weeks. The longest we have ever been apart.



I am undone.



I like to think of myself as a pretty independent person. I don't usually like to ask for help, thinking I can do it better on my own. I am stubborn. Strong willed. Bullheaded at times. I like my space. I need alone time every now and then.



I am ridiculous.



My life here without the man I love is too hard. Its stretches on forever with no hope of ending.Time stands still. The hours are filled with mundane activities. Robotic movements rule my body. My mind blank and uncooperative. Earlier statements of self- proclaimed fortitude and stall worthiness retracted. I am nothing without him. My heart hurts. My eyes are constant pools. I am cranky.

I am incomplete.



(can anyone tell I just finished " Breaking Dawn"? Yea..try that one all alone...)