Apr 21, 2010

Soundtracks for life




Do you ever find yourself listening to a song on the radio, or at home and assigning that song as a theme for something that happened or is happening in your life?

Well, I do.....all the time. :)

I LOVE music, any kind (usually) and its always been a big part of my life.

I remember in high school shutting myself away in my room when I felt depressed and listening to  Counting Crows "colorblind" over and over.

Or the day that a man I thought I knew ripped my heart out after stringing me along. I cried myself to sleep for weeks to Jars of Clay's "frail"

Any Third Eye Blind song takes me back to Jr. High. I was in love with "wounded""God of Wine" and "Good for You." I still listen to them over and over to this day. It makes me think of trying so hard to fit in, my first kiss and all my friends who were just as sad and messed up as I felt.  I felt lost and helpless and went to see a psychiatrist. Those songs also remind me of when I first started writing poetry to let it all out. ( I had a LOT of angst growing up!) :) I don't have these feeling anymore, but I still love the music.

When I hear Brookes and Dunn " Aint Nothin 'bout you" I am taken back to hot Georgia nights when I spent the last semester of my senior year with my grandparents and I met an amazing boy. We would cruise down the long stretches of highway and I would hang my feet out the window while closing my eyes and breathing in the sweet, humid air. He took me on my first dirt bike ride through the forest, going as fast as he could so I would hang on tight. He taught me how to shoot a .22 and would say "Yes Ma'm" with a crooked smile in a southern accent to die for.  When this song would come on the radio he would turn it up and sing the words as loud as he could while looking at me with his blue eyes.  I loved it. We lost touch after I left, ( however, he did become friends with my little sis in college..weird!) but I still think about those few months and wonder where he is right now.

One night after I had been dating my husband for a while we danced in the dark in my living room to "Hero."  It became our wedding song and I cry every time I listen to it. That was the happiest day of my life. I do believe he is my hero. He saved me in more ways than one and I thank Heavenly Father every day that he came along when he did to show me that there were good men in the world. He loved me despite me and still does.

Now-a-days my angst has been suppressed and the songs I label to my life are a lot more happy. When The Boy was born I sang him to sleep every night with the Dixie chicks "God Speed." I couldn't ever make it through the whole thing without choking up. (in fact, I am crying as I write, since I happen to be listening to it!) I can't believe how much he has grown since then. Dixie Chicks " Lullaby" is my anthem for mother hood and I can't hear the Zac Brown Band's " Sic em on a chicken" without laughing, since its my kids favorite song and they have a crazy dance party every time I put it on. :) You can thank The Man for that one!

I guess this post kind of delved pretty deep into some of Ashleigh life, but its good to be real. I have a million more I could name- songs for every grade, first loves, break ups, fights with the husband..make ups with the husband, old best friends, new best friends and friends with benefits, Ncmo's, (ask me about that one if you don't know...) :) apologies, road trips, girls night outs and even giving birth!  In fact a few of the songs on my player have deeper meanings to me. I don't really listen to music lightly, especially the music I really love and listen to all the time, its a big part of who I am.

*This post was spurred on by the song " Heart Break Warfare" by John Mayer that I happened to hear on the radio while driving today. Not that I am experiencing any heart break at the moment, but the words did remind me of when I have and that made me think about all the songs I love and the memories they induce. :)*


What do you guys love and listen to that brings on memories or is applicable to life happening now? :)

P.S.
Sorry if some of that was a little intense TMI! :)

4 comments:

  1. Wow, not only do I agree with you about music (I have many songs that reflect my own memories and experiences) but I love how you write ash! I am not a very good writer. I used to be but I have no inspiration anymore it seems. :( Oh yeah, and not only did Gabe become friends with me, he wanted to date me! He kissed me one night at mom and dads house at thanksgiving! He is married now though and lives on the other side of the country. Grandma tells me about him sometimes. I am glad he was able to move on past getting his heart broken by you and then eventually by me. Those Barlow girls are just too hot for their own good! :)

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